fading..

ugh. im slowly fading away. my brain is slowly melting away. ive been locked up in a cage. wait more like a prison cell. 5 more months i shall know my fate. or may be 6. jobless. worthless. i knew this day will come. i knew how restless it'll be. but i also dreamt it'll end a different ending. i shouldn't have made the call so soon. i should have waited another week or two. take me if you want. or not let me go soon. empty promises are the worst. but when you owe someone something, you have to wait to pay them back. sigh. such is life.

Housewife

The tale of being a housewife.

Day 1

1000

Wake up

1030

Breakfast

1200

Clear boxes

1600

Throwing tantrum because boxes don't contain my stuff. And instead have repack everything. Total waste of effort!!

1800

Cook rice. Fish. Vegetable (Oh so healthy)

(Menu : Sweet sour fish, par-boil vegetable )

Day 2

0900

Rise and shine

1000

Breakfast

1100

Wash clothes

1200

Fold clothes

1300

Wash some more clothes

1400

Fold clothes

1500

Bring clothes out to dry

1600

Wash more clothes

1700

Rain. shucks!! bring clothes in and hang in rooms. Make letter clothing curtain out of them. From the outside it looks horrible but its ok. At least the clothes get dry

1800

Cook chicken and vegetable

(Menu : Pan fry wings and vegetable with egg soup)

Day 3 is pretty much the same as day day 1 and 2. More clothes needed to be washed and I cooked fish instead of chicken.

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How is that?. Not bad huh.(self praise is not praise at all they say. hahahaha)

Ok I'm kidding. It sure is tough to be a housewife. Wait no, I'm not married yet. Finally I hear the graduation bells ringing in my ears. Well not really.. I hear the washing machine going for its last spinning round. Argh. Yeah I don't like doing the house chores. really. I mean really. Mummmy.. where are you?.. 

Thought you'd already guess by now. Mum is on a holiday. And she left raw fish and chicken in the freezer. Tomorrow me and sis, we're going home. So we'll leave dad alone. huhu ='( poor dad. So he reminds me to cook everyday and clear the fridge and clear the clothes and clear my room. Now you see why I was doing the above. 

Haha.. I'm not complaining. Wait I am complaining. Its just its so lonely doing all those alone you know. Sis is so busy with her eyes practically glued to the PC, and dad is at work and who else is left. Yups me. If I have someone do it with me it'll be more fun at least I can talk to the person when I do the house chores. 

Ahh but thats ok. Everything is almost cleared up now. =) Clothes. You can never finish washing them. Unless you go naked for one week. House. You can never finish cleaning it because.. I mean c'mon we can tell the dust fall in one area. If it could I now where I'll tell it to fall.. and I wish big lumps of dust would fall there. Blow 45 degrees more to the right please. Yes thats right. Yups drop where you hear "Deck the halls" .. Yeah right there where the strings vibrate. Oh wait do you see the person playing too? Maybe a little dust there. (Trust me if you here the song being played more than twice everyday you won't feel like decking the halls anymore)

I'm just being mean. haha. Its ok. Its a jolly season. We should be. =) 

Thats it.. till next time. =)

New Hair Cut

I got my hair cut a week ago. lol. Ahh feels like I got rid of 10 kg. =P I like it though. I hope you do too.

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Toe

One day I found a bloody toe. I didn't know how blood got onto my toe. It dripped through the sole of my foot. It  didn't hurt but it bled for almost a week. Here are the pics =). Be warn its eeky!! =D

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Hope you enjoyed =P . Have a nice day

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Nerd's talk

I can only loose 2 marks to get an A for an ethical subject. I think my excellent streak is loosing its charm. Where art thou my excellence? Don't leave me yet.

I aim for an A for every subject. It was easy-ier then. But now, its either I'm getting sillier or the people around me are getting smarter. I would prefer the latter.

Its no fun studying and then getting grades less than that. Its no fun putting alot of tears and sweat when the marks awarded are less than perfection. Scary huh. Its stressful because every mark counts. Every one less mark is like a puncture in the heart.

I hear you say, "Don't take it so seriously. Its only your studies."
and I hear another from the back row,"You're graduating. Let it be no matter how much you get this sem it will not effect you."

I sit for exams like it was in foundation. I get all nervous and all worked up for the exam. The only thing different now.. I don't get to answer the questions properly. Maybe I am getting old or maybe the subjects don't suit me.

I need to get back on track. At least for this time.

*Looks to the heavens with pleading eyes*

I hear someone say "Your life is not fun at all. Relax have some fun"

Maybe I'm just boring.

You choose.

=.=

Life is not easy ='(

I use to hear people say life is not a bed of roses. I use not to understand when they say it. I take life as simple and I love shortcuts and fast-paced life. One decision being, entering into the university. It is not my passion nor is I see myself to be in the future. I still question it it was the right choice or was it because I just wanted to get an education so I didn't think much.

Have this degree got me far? How can my interest and the degree be so different that it is so hard even when applying for a job. An interest and a degree when they conflict it is hard to even do job search. But I'm not giving up. At least I hope I won't. Can I just settle and pretend I like what I don't and fake my way in for the next 20 years of my life?

"Its a good package. But I'm sorry we don't offer this job." What do you think when you hear it. I don't know what to think. Should I be happy or sad? Or should I forget it and move on.

Its not easy for me. It isn't. Lord please make my life a little easier. How to dream big dreams when I can only go so far.

I have an exam tomorrow. At least give me some hope somewhere.

*Looks to the heavens*

15 days to freedom

My little personal countdown!! Yeps its 15 days till I bid farewell to my undergraduate studies!! I am so excited. Last paper would be Corporate Ethics. ahh.. how ethical. =)

Looking back 4.5 years I can say there were alot of tears, pain, depression, sadness.. all bad stuff huh?.. but.. it doesn't equal the fun I have. What fun some might ask. Well, fun as defined by me is getting to meet new people, hang out with them, talk till the wee hours of the morning, doing CSI work in foundation was by far the most exciting. =) Most may think I'm a boring person yes? Stay in my room, study, go back home study. Haha.. hmm.. that's just a perception. =) It's alright if you think that way. =) I'm pretty use to it. It's ok if you think I'm a nerd I'm use to it too. Or maybe I always wanted you to perceive me that way. Maybe I am or maybe I am not. =) You choose. Maybe I am not a fun person at all or maybe I am. I can't please everyone now can I? =D

Ahh well, 4.5 years have gone by. I have made friends and loose some. I have not achieve what I have planned to achieve in the university but there is no turning back and there is nothing that I can erase and re-do. Disappointed but it is over. =) And I am glad that this 4.5 years is over. =)

Having said that, I will miss my friends =). Although I have not spend much time with you. But the little time that we have together is enough for me to have many fond memories of us.

I wish you all, all the best in your final exam!! And hope to see each other more often. (I think I should be in uni more often eh? =))

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